I saw this off stacy's lj, and decided it might be a better idea than doing my christmas post which everyone else seems to be doing.

Ten different things you wished you could say to ten different people.

1) We've been out for each other over the years, and I'm still watching your back, as you do mine. You're the person who has the almost complete picture of who I truly am. And what i think is that over time, the strength of our relationship will simply deepen. Thank you. Again. I'll always be here for you.

2) Although you'll probably never understand this; I've seen you grow through the years, and I must say I'm proud of you for becoming who you are right now. The year ahead is going to be challenging for everyone, but especially you. In any case, I can't make your decisions, and neither will I directly influence them. But know this. No matter how much we might laugh at you or poke at you, we have your best interests at heart.

3) After so long, I still fear. I don't know how much I should, or can give to you without you withdrawing from me. In any case, I just want you to know that although you probably don't need me, I'll be there for you 24/7. Whenever, wherever. Always.

4) For the time I've known you, you've grown alot although it sounds wierd coming from someone like me. But anyway, I've grown to respect you for your protectiveness and your concern. Your impact is far greater than you might realise. Now, the next year might be all the more deadly for everyone, and you are one of the few who can make  the actual difference cause I can't handle it alone. I know you will. I know you can.

5) You are one person who I shared my life with, and for some reason, I broke off, unsure. Now I've come to realise it wasn't your fault, nor mine. But in any case I would stil like to apologise for seeing you as someone who you weren't. Everyone's vison gets clouded at times, even mine. Although it's not too easy for me to regain trust of someone, I'll be doing my best.

6) Now you are the person to whom I'd really need to say this. The amount of stuff I know and hear about you is so vast, and so contrasting, that I really don't know what to believe. I'm not sure if I was previously decieved, or am currently decieved now. But one word of advice I have for you. I know who my people are. I know who will stand by me and who will die for or with me. I also know who I'll stand by, or die for. I too hope you already really know who your people are. If you're unsure, its high time you find out.

7) You are one person who I've worked with and our teaming up has increased our effectiveness. I truly enjoy working with you. You're a great friend, and I'm honoured to be yours. So please don't take what I'm going to say in anger. You need to be more emphatatic. Really. I'm not sure whether you think so, but i feel that you'll be a fuller person that way. Don't worry, in any case, it probably won't affect how i think of you in any way.

8) Although we don't really talk that much, I still respect you. Alot. At the point where you could have simply shunned me you took me as a friend. I still am not sure if i could have done the same, if  positions were reversed.So I'd like to thank you for all you've been. You're more of a person than i could have been.

9) I've only recently got to talk to you, and know you, so I can't truly say much. In any case, i know you're a very very emotional person. I'd like to say although I can be a support, and will be for the matter, it's not entirely healthy for you. You need to hold your own and use that inner strength I KNOW that is in you. And btw, God has a plan for you. Don't settle for less.

10) You are chaos. It's not a compliment either. I believe its quite intentional, and I don't really like it this way. Really, being such is not the best way to cultivate friendships. I'm not saying i need to understand you to be your friend, but honestly, it'll help too.